To Kenneth

Dear Kenneth,

Lately, I have been thinking a lot about you.

I wonder who you would have been today.

I wonder how different my childhood would have been had you been born.

I wonder what kind of brother you may have been and how close we might be.

I wonder what your profession may be, if you would have a girlfriend and where you might live.

I wonder what your political views may be and how you would react to the current violence against black men like yourself.

I wonder what kind of influence you would have on my son.

I wonder if you may have a family of your own by now.

I wonder if you would have had dad's laid back personality.

I wonder if you would have gotten mom's strength and heart.

I wonder if mom and dad would still be together...

I wonder if you would have been a world traveler like Kim.

I wonder if you would be into superheroes, music and fitness like me.

I wonder if you and my husband would play paintball together.

I wonder so many things little brother. I'm not sure why the Lord took you before any of us had a chance to meet you, but you are loved and missed even after all of these years and I just wanted you to know.

If you are in the Raleigh, North Carolina area, join me tomorrow as we walk and talk to remember and honor the babies who were lost during pregnancy or after birth.