There is nothing more important to me than being a wife and mother. They are the greatest titles I will ever hold.
Love has always been at the center of my life. The one thing that has been a constant. But not just any love. I mean true, unconditional love. Unconditional love from God, my mother and now my husband. Everything that I experienced before I became a wife and mother was all a test. A test of my heart, my strength and my brain’s ability to function without sleep! But I realize now that all the good and the bad prepared me and made me into the woman I am. The mother I am. It is because of this great love that I am able to appreciate getting up at 6 a.m. each morning and I instantly smile when I see his face.
I always wanted to be a mother. My child care career prepared me well for motherhood. I still don’t know everything but I had major fears. My fear of motherhood stemmed from my family’s medical history. I was scared. Scared I couldn’t or wouldn’t be able to carry a child to term. Still, the plan was to wait to have children. My husband and I were taking time to finish our education and simultaneously build our careers and we had no intention of having children yet. When we found out we were pregnant, it was during an adjustment period. Our car died, I had just been laid off a couple of months before without any notice and he was now the soul bread winner. I was consumed with a lot of emotion already because I had just turned 25. Needless to say, I was not completely happy about where I was in my life. Really, I just thought I would be in a different place. I just couldn’t accept all the setbacks. But my husband and I believe our lives were being purged so we could receive all the blessings that were about to come our way.
Exactly one month after my birthday, the doctor confirmed that “Tad” was indeed growing inside me. It was the happiest day of my life! And more happy days followed. My husband and I got married not once, but twice in the months following the news of our new addition :) We were overwhelmed with gifts for our precious baby boy from all three baby showers and the love continues to this day. Friends and family still give us clothes, shoes and toys as if we are still expecting.
My dream to become a mother finally came true on Friday, March 25, 2011. I had a quick and smooth delivery and I wouldn’t have asked for anything to be different. Honestly, the only memory I have directly after hearing my son cry was the look on my husband’s face as he held our son for the first time. He was and is such a proud father. That was the moment I knew our love would carry on through the next generation. I’m celebrating two years of being a mom in just a few days and I still wake up every day shocked and grateful that I am someone’s mother. Life hasn’t been the same, but I wouldn’t want to live it any other way.
“If you’re living in love, you doing okay.” Chantal Hayes